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atouchofgt

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Uh... hi. I guess this is an update on life.
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I'll get the good news out first since there's more bad news than good news.
I made a new Tumblr again. You can follow me here if you'd like.
Along with that, I've realized a few toxic things about myself. I'm working on it.

That's it. It just gets negative and sad from here. Now, here's the bad news.

Strap yourselves in for one hell of a ride. Sorry about the following.
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I've been doing progressively worse lately. I'm not doing better. I might seem really good in the heat of the moment, but I seem to be constantly getting worse. I don't know where to go now. I feel like my problems in real life and my problems in the G/t community have just blended together, and now I see the same issues in both as a result of who I am. I feel... terrible? Awful. It's all on me.
I look at people who have great times in life. Heck, I even look at people who have great times just in the community. I know because of the way I am, I can't get that nor can I get that back.
I just want healthy social interactions I guess. But, I know the way I am, I'll never be able to. I guess I blame myself for most of it. All of it. i know it's the way that I am which causes this. I'm the only one to blame.
I think I have been ruining relationships too. I'm not sure. I just, things are constantly changing, and I don't know how to change with them.

I just, I wish I had evidence that showed I was at the very least a fun person to be around. I just, I don't know. I know I'm not worth the time of a lot of people I try to talk to. I see myself as a burden in most people's lives. Whether real life or on here, I guess I just see myself as a burden and a nuisance.

And, I guess, another thing is thoughts. I've been having thoughts about certain things. And these thoughts are terrible and would cause me harm, but I mean, it seems like the only solution. I am doubtful that I could ever pull through with such thoughts, but I don't know. I've just been getting closer and closer to actually doing it, and I'm not sure if I'm seeing good enough reasons not to do it

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DiegoGTRatty Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
ELLOOOOO Touch! :la:
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atouchofgt Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2016  Hobbyist
EyYyY!!!! What's happening my fellow Gt enthusiast? Such fine weather on this autumn night, isn't it?
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DiegoGTRatty Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Indeed there is my good freind :D

I'd probably follow on tumblr too but I haven't had the time to make an account there :XD:
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atouchofgt Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2016  Hobbyist
Ah it's no problemo! Thanks for the watch here though! It's the thought that counts, ya know! : D
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bitty-chibi Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2016
Thank you for the watch and fav! :heart:
I'm actually not active here though. I posted the link 'cause Oath wanted to know how I ran RPs through here. Or used to. I kinda fell off the bandwagon last summer. ^^;
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atouchofgt Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2016  Hobbyist
(P.S.: Your icon is one of the cutest things I have ever seen!!!)
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atouchofgt Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2016  Hobbyist
Oh it's ok! And thank you for your watch! I'll keep you on my watch though, I still love to see your art : D
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RainbowFay Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the fave.^^
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atouchofgt Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2016  Hobbyist
No problem!
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Cariwebo Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2016
Thanks for the watch!
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